I'm tired. Week three of the New Year was the first full work week of the year and I definitely felt the difference a day added to the work week makes! I slipped on meal preps and we ended up grabbing lunch out twice this week. I feel like a complete failure but I simply ran out of time.
This week made me question if I really need to work full time for someone else. I don't hate my job, but I don't love it either. Last weekend was super productive and my partner and I did a deep clean of several rooms of our tiny house and completely rearranged the bedroom. It feels like a different room and we both love it but both agree that we still have a lot more organization and clean up to go. Having so much left that we wanted to accomplish made it so difficult to head in to work on Monday morning to do a job that I really don't care all that much about. Only the fact that we have some big bills coming up got us to drag our asses in and work a full week.
While we did go off budget for food this week, I still have saving money at the forefront of my mind. Each weekend I've tried to DIY something that I would otherwise get at a store. Last weekend was no exception: I made candles! It's surprisingly easy to make beeswax candles which is what I did. I cleaned out some old candle jars that I had laying around with just the end of old candles. I melted out the old wax and dipped pine cones in it to make fire starters for our wood stove. Then I scrubbed out the jars and added melted beeswax and a wick. I'm still not great at centering the wick but I fully intend to keep practicing. If you want to try too, it's really easy. I learned how on Pinterest and I sourced my beeswax from the candle making department of JoAnn Fabrics.
This week was a challenge. I feel like a failure but I know that I shouldn't. I'm Feeling the frustration once again at having to work such long hours during the week that pulls me away from my own projects. Next week I'm going to focus more on fleshing out my goals to better come up with a plan to reach them. Only having a vague idea of what you want to accomplish makes it difficult to act in a meaningful way. This is something that I struggle with and it's time that changes.